Introspective Personality

Ryan Lindsey - Introspective Personality, sorry.. no lyrics found. :/

    I can't lie, I feel quite untouched right now, and I say that with as many different tenors you fathom. As I grow older, I am reading into more things; that is kind of what I want to talk about. Anytime I bring it up, I sometimes find it often hard to explain. I always feel that I am in someway "beating around the bush", and I just have a nagging that I can never seem to fully portray exactly what I want to say.. this intro needless to say is probably "heaviest" of parts. It's the important part, that gets unlooked at times. I try, I really do, to get out my inner voice. Sometimes I know it is difficult to understand at times.. but I proudly state it as my personal collocation, so take it as you will.


    At first I'd say that I feel alone, but think the word 'alone' is too strong, so how about a phrase? "An aloof hermit." Of course I don't want this to be true of me, I am diligent to better improve myself in every which way and form. I want to be constantly happy to push my limits. I don't mean to go over-board on things, and I do.. I'll be the first to admit it, but.. I want to fix that. I want to live comfortably.. in every means. Everyone does, don't they? Who doesn't?, want to live comfortably? New job opportunities are on their way, ones that will put a little more money into to the bank, so I'm not living paycheck to paycheck. I have 2 bucks in my wallet until the 5th, and that check is gone. So as you can see, new changes and chances.. must be in order.. to get me up in life. Now I know from pure experience, that money.. it isn't everything, but it is a necessity in this world to live, unhinged from that somewhat, mediocre life. I want more for my family, that I will have to support, than just scrap.. I want to live peacefully and undoubted in each other, solitude, a secure, and safe home. It's the people that you love, that you look out for the most.. now I have my sympathies.. but, I think it's about time for a little composition for me. A base of sanctuary. After that, I will rot my children will love and care; guidance and dignity. I'm pretty sure, I'll be an awesome Father.. but let's not get ahead of ourselves here. I'm thinking 27.. 29 have a kid. Only to be married to my otherwise known as my dream girl. I'm not 100% sure, but it's close.. I'm just going to call it now, that she will be a Pisces. It's all I've been thinking about, and I know some of you don't put a lot of stock into the whole Zodiac scene.. but to me it's important, and to me it is real. If not that, then Cancer. Either or would be lovely, both seem to be a good choice to go with, they fit me.. and what I am looking for in a woman. Where Pisces are a little more "unconditional", Cancers are more "nurturing." If that makes sense.. you'd really have to read into it more to see the subtleties that define and differentiate these signs. To give you examples of celebrities that you may know and like: Natalie Dreyfuss, Ellen Page, Bruce Willis, Alan Rickman, and Drew Berrymore are all Pisces; while Kris Kristofferson, John Cusack, Lizzy Caplan, Kristen Bell, and Jane Lynch are Cancers. All actors and actresses that I like and enjoy, and as far as women.. all are my type in a sense, and I could see a relationship working out if the circumstances were right. That really does it for the main stuff I wanted to talk about right at this moment. I'm sure that I will write more soon to cover the rest of my aspects of life. Until then.. I'd love to here any and all thoughts. Please leave comments. :)