A Looming Walk

"A Looming Walk"
I saw the mirror and gazed into ashes
Once full of flame and man-made mind-clashes 
But all I have left
Is what remains here for me now
It's not much, I know, but I know somehow

I woke up with cold feet, in a cold sweat
My palms grabbed at the sheets, painting them wet
My thoughts willed me to do everything and they said
It's okay to leave behind hand marks to look ocover your heart
I was told to count the beats that never seemed to start

My body shivering head to toe like they'd break apart

I saw for the first time the mere gleam of me

As these dark nights alone, clone in my head
Before I know it here another begins
My simple routine, again and again

Biding its time
My eyes make inn
Under fleshy skins
Ears caught in the gear's of memory
As music plays, mundanely in the background
While I lay restless
In my bed

Thinking about some tiresome plans
That I think, are hatching in my head
Only to be stopped short
By rhymes these I must now...sort

Awaking the dead
Do I leap out memory
Of my body
Imbedded in this bed

Or do I just crash
Lay down my head
And fall back
...asleep again

But then, I saw shades outside my window
Haunting shadows, that like to creep
Like foxes on sheep, killing my count
Before I get a chance to sleep
But here now,  a secret you will keep
One...that I entrust
Please...
You must dig
And remain deep

I have often seen
Satire faces
Laugh at me
And no...
It is not funny
Long nights, I'm supposed to love
However much reason
It is...
It's because
I'm supposed to be...

Occasions reveal themselves
That I have
No tomorrow...
That I can oversleep
And not have to suffer
Awakening beeps
That prolonged nights forego
When the they grow heavy
And cause dry swallows
Nightmares
That I can only hope
I'm borrowing

The power to raise
The practically dead
It was as simple, as said
But I lacked the might, and seemed to weigh
Bathed in sin
In my normal attire drenched
In what I treaded in

If I only knew then, how heavy was the satire when
I changed into my T-shirt and jeans

A haunting that would
End and begin
Here now as it forever
Lives in history
So much left, in my memory

So I was loaded
Deep pocketed with necessities
A flashlight, a coke, and a few amenities
If you know my means...
And there I stood
Ghouled in grey
Slacked but sound
Ready to go
With some parts
Still tight and bound
The same state mind, that keeps you...uneasy
Even at open door screens
But there...
Mine likewise stood
Somewhere left in the dust
As it took off down the street
For a walk, a dream
Where no ends meet

Talking to myself
Jamming to my beats
Greeting death on its own turf
Cold as sleet
I felt thunder...
Roll with purpose
Across my feet
While stepping in steady rhythm
On the concrete
... on the concrete

I soon got lost in thought
When I saw...I thought
A mad man and a demon
That had somehow combined
And a scare took over my mind
With a fierce begot
But like ghosts hiding in the shade
When I took a second look
It had all had faded

Life struck patterns, left in mid- stroke
Heard a spook, disappearing into the smoke
Leaving no signs of blood streaks
Ghost disguised
In plain white-sheets
The ones that always seem to follow me
That destiny says that I was destined, to one day meet
Leaving their marks, cold-bloodily
Promising nothing...
But brutality
... brutality

A wave of tingles begin
Where I feel the Goosebumps
Roll across my skin
The same ones that come when
Wading through cold waters

Rains fall into hands
Remembering of their dead warriors
Trying to hide piques
In their respectful pleats
Wiping tears of despair
Off their cheeks
Made up of secrets and dreams
Smothering themselves
In untouched drawers
 And in me

I am just a simpleton
With nothing to hide
And even though I am as cold now
As I am dark and blind
We were all left here
...Left behind
Buried in the revengeful cliché
Of a shovel and lime
Having to dig our way out
Of this lawless crime

This is my hymn
To the darkness
And for all of time
That I am free
No more of my shadow
Is sent here
To watch over me
No more is the light to shine
With a beacon bright
Enough to blind eyes
But even though I only now
Dwell and deal in the night
The limit of my sight
Was I about to ignite
So with a fine line of declining signs
That I can remain asleep
I admit defeat

As the moon shines with might
And the sun raises
To meet the new day
I feel supine hands
Shrug away weight from my shoulders
Memories that I once hid
Now opined
By the ever troubling "undefined"
Right hearted
...Forever
I rest in my mind
But as I awake
I remain
Still turning, in my sleep

For I don't know, that I am without sheets
...Leading nightmares...
As they wage cold against my feet
Defeating my own pleas, I stomp out my screams
With a sense of teaming rivalry
 I am what I defeat
What I dream
And can redeem
Forever in my memory