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Why are we going this way?

So I'm trying to write a piece for Spoken Word.. and I'm having difficulties. My main problem is my lack of confidence in what ideas are keepers and which are not. I can and do write tons of just little bits of lines down, but do they make a story? In most cases no. And this is discouraging me to indulge more into it. My basic idea is that I want the piece to be about me and my conflicting angel and devil play out. My inner dialogue written on paper and then preformed aloud. You see I have these voices in my head that can have conversations when I'm daydreaming, there aren't any concrete characters but rather the same actors playing a collage of personae. Although now that I think about it, I haven't named them with any sort of defining personal characteristics.. I just knew, if that makes any sense. I'll start noting those things and keep you posted.  I want to do it in a way where I lose my rage and kinda go crazy. I want it to be a very powerful performance. I just have to get the dialogue right, and in a way that conveys some sort of redeeming message. That is where it gets sticky. Because I want to be talking to myself, while simultaneously be talking at the audience. I want them to feel horrendous pressure in their chest, I want it to be profound. In theory it is a grand concept, but I have to write it all first and then step up to the massive plate, and give it a go. Hopefully I won't swing and amiss. As far as everything written below, pappa ain't happy. It be shit. However, the grind goes on.

You've got to be insane Taylor

This is my my command, Make a stand!

You've pushed me to this people!
I say this as true
You would do nothing to me, but do what you do

Call me out to see a crowd
When all I do is stare at the ground
Scared of those eyes that speak the truth
It is latent how you come into view

When you see eyes that never blink
So raw it will make you think
What are they thinking, are our thoughts linked

Is it just me, or (are) we all going crazy

The Fires of Hell can't even live down here boy
Because I pitched you into the waters o(f bubbly)' boil

You just fell in, and roared laughter in retort

If mama can't bitch, mama ain't happy.


Not in front of the devil woman, not in front of the devil. May it be too evil?.. Does he make me say these words to you or is it my own wickedness? Is it from my own disclosed wretchedness? Is it all from my own corrupted mind?

Life is just a motion in play . . . it is summer in the night with the full moon on the horizon, shining through it . . . is reflected the following good morning to be.

You wouldn't think that, I don't mean people.

I feel very bestial. There is crazy in here head. It feels good when you do good. Yeah, yeah, yeah, but I don't know who said it.
I don't want you to walk away from me and be all okay. I want you to miss me, and if you do come back to me someday if I don't find you first I will hold you. It will be okay then.

For Taurus', life is just a crap shoot

Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds cry, oh what a wonderful feeling "why oh why." Someday I think I'll wish upon a star and question why oh why you are so far.. come closer to me-eee.

Not now, it is too fine. Not now, is it too fine?

No smoke until it is all clear.

Don't yuck my yum.

Chronic Stupidity

The empty vastness is smothering me

Girls can't be Frank. It's a guy's name for a reason.

Your only friend, the end

Pour poor rainbows

If my heart could write songs they'd sound like these.

Joy to the world, life is just like magic

Intrinsic

Simple times in May, lovely times in June
Because I know her eyes are closed too

Frankly my dear I don't give a damn.

You play ball like a girl.

I'm done of you.

I have not come, I have not come, I have just begun. I have not come just to be another one, I have come to be someone. Thunk.

Dink Woods

Titles for my future big hits (crosses fingers).. Lion King and Shut-Up. Short list but I'll get back to you.

Take me back to where I can stand it, take me back near home. I know there but not out here, where I feel most alone. Take me back oh God of please, where I am still surely known. Take me back oh God please, for now I just don't know.

I helped him/her off.

"Pleasing to the eye." --- Did this phrase come from cyclops?

Rotation
There are these machine-like beings that turn the clocks of the written
Don't be afraid to turn a new page

I don't want mail.



Pink Floyd - Goodbye Blue Sky. Lyrics here

--- The next half page or so are some lines I found out of two YouTube videos. I left parts out, edited others. It's all real life dialogue by the way, none of it is scripted. I say this knowing you will probably just end up being confused at the end anyway.

Human Crossbow
Damnit, I can notice something. I feel something (fucking) going on. Either outside or I'm inside something.

It's Justin, I'm here with you.

Who the - ? What the - ? FUCK! Who is? Who said? Godamnit.
I don't know who the fuck you are ,but I feel that(like) I am supposed to know. I can't see anything, the other side. I can't see anything, triangular, look at him there, the other side.
I feel I am in a crossbow. My knees are bent over there.
I felt that was a far away island, and there(they're) over this ocean.
Who? Is there shit over to the island?
WTF?

It's just a kitty cat

Oh shit dude, they got to him
Fuck man, He-Man lost his panthers
Attacking my fucking village get her off
They are my people, damn right
Wait, hold on.
I hit some Salvia but damn I can't get out.
Alright, um.
Dude I'm tripping
Oh, OK none of that just happened

You are all good

Alright never mind that was- Yeah but I can't get the cave off my face though.

The cable?

No! The Cave.

Oh, do you want me to help you get it off? Will you freak out?

No, just don't, just leave the cave there because (like), It's the only thing that came with Stallone.
I got some people to remember.
It's getting hot cause I ain't seen shit for the past some years
All the King's horses? They left.

It's been about 6 minutes

Damn dude, Oh.. 6 minutes? What are you talking about?
The only thing conscious of me is my mouth
Umm, hmm, hard.
I feel like the guy you see at movies who can only use his arms.
Okay never mind my lips aren't fall.
I am slowly slipping back into reality
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Mt. Mogul(Man out of his face)

Be more mottling minded
Bind you with the M-word.
You here for rall shall talk taxi-man, you hereby stand binded(bound) by the M-word.
You middling mindly monologuing
I bind you, I stop you, I stopped you meddling mindless. The M Master. You are going to get mingled this time. You mendly, modeling man. Get mean, get middley
Don't get me, get mastered                                   1
Don't get mean, get nasty                                     2 He said one of the three.
Don't get me, get mass(t)y                                    3
Hellow Miguel mommy
But people are middle of mind all the time. I meagle you, mind you, a little line
Most people open mind a little
Be more mottle minded
D-d-d-de-e-detest these things, come on now be reasonable be more real
I have stumbled across the meaning of mife is mad. It is the meaning of all life, M.
What am I doing here taxing my, I have to be in your life, in my middly, mottley, mind
Oh middly minded mayhem.
This is most unmettly of you.
M is the meaning of leaving.
M is the meaning of things(these), I knew it. The fucking M.
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The Lunacy, Savage Dream
The Linking Sapient Dream
The Liquid Sensations Dream

And all these powers to be, Pisces

I stand up fearfully.

It is crazy to think that I could reciprocate this exact good feeling inside
Crying tears of amber

God give me that please, I want some more heat, you want some more leet
Talk to me, seek me, leak me
Beat, beat, beat
Let me feel that beat, make me dance it

Time is not alone if you are the one having the fun
Explore it, be it, live through me
Dance the night away I pray, I pray
May, may, may.. I say it over and over

Listen to me, beam me, continue me
Hit play, fool me, say why thee fuck not?
We feel so great anyway, so what the hey?
Just cruise, and muse the night away

They have big thumbs

This writing is what I come down to. If my ego would say nothing else, it would say that I want to write. But what if I end up no good? What would I do with myself? I'd never be satisfied fully unless I was a successful writer. This is the only thing I have going for myself that I am remotely better than most at.. but what if even then I never get anywhere? Where are my "great pieces" that make my name? Huh? Gah. I guess in time, I hope, I tender.

The finger devil sign comes out where you have the person at the heart. Despite the sign representing "evil", they express it almost in a brotherly instinctual way to get across the feeling of pure passion or to get recognition of appeasement. Twhat?

Ebony and Ivory

Playing music over the vacuum is a waste of the music
... it is for background noise man
Then it isn't really music then.

The Pisces mind their bend

Are you on a drug of some kind?
Yeah it is called life and I am loving it.

Oh what a wonderful world it is outside
When I can feel the day pass alright
Through the sleeves of banded rays from the sun
Casting over me, you, listen to a bathing child

I live in the desert, I live in the mountains, I am big, my mind is big
 
Just don't wear red is all I ask
Blue lily is just a clover

I have over-spoken

I hurt my flirt on you
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I promise the next blog will have thicker pieces.