Venting For The Greater Good - Discover

 

Hi there. My name is Taylor, and in this particular post, Venting For the Greater Good, I will explore my delay to share this blog with you. In conclusion, I have feared my worthiness to the world enough to speak to it, but, after some higher thinking.. and my own dismay, I have surpassed succumbing to the thought of hesitance because I now feel that the only way to be better is to continue. I have found what I.S. Infinitely Significant in sharing my inner world.

I was not certain of my future delivery, so I remained unsure that I should say anything. Regardless of my knowing to be human is to be flawed, I couldn't seem to shake my fear of unclear speech, yet, in the continuance of the same train of thought, I felt a sense of abandoning myself if I were to say nothing at all. So out of those two evils: fear of inferiorness or one of silence, here I am, choosing to roll the dice of death and speak on.

In the perfect world in my head, I imagine the "On Air" neon sign lightening up. I let a few quiet seconds pass to build anticipation, and then I start my speech with an ease of fluid confidence as if no empty time has passed, just as a practiced anchor would pronounce the news on a show. Of course --- this is not how it truly is behind these letters of contemplation.. if only this was a live feed, you could sense my hesitance, and see my literal gawking at the sight of the keyboard.

I share this small excerpt of an emote fabricated in my head just to give you some comparison of the types of thoughts running through my mind..

*As the aforementioned anchor*
/After watching the footage, I find that without my knowing, Karen, our newest intern, had thankfully and understandingly wiped my chin of the drool accumulating in the corner of my mouth, because I was so dumbstruck by the infinitesimal combination of letters and spaces before me. But, as I sat there gathering myself in the language I have been taught, the message I meant to speak started to constellate in my head and appear through my lips as I heard the reciprocating, repeated echo of a message from a distantly far land out of my earpiece: "You are live, talk! We are live, talk! You are alive, talk! We are alive, talk! 

Share!

My ending lesson today is to speak on even when you doubt the message will be received. You are not a mechanical creature, able to deliver a perfect performance on command. So do not be deterred by this obstacle as I was. In fact, embrace this test of fight or flight of the dialogue, because, lying within our inevitable speech debacles.. are our own perfectings of communication. It is up to everybody to improve their self for the betterment of themselves, and therefore, the world.

Now, sometimes we can be flawless in our delivery, and I do feel that humanity allows us to do so on such favored occasions, especially after we are well practiced --- but on the whole, in general daily life, our speech isn't perfect. This is a constant truth we must strive to conquer.

To address the (possibly) newly sighted, or rather smelled elephant in the room.. silence is a response, and a rather good one. Sometimes it is the best response, it just all depends on the situation. As for anyone who knows Boba, and was gathering to defend the modest-mouthed people or animals, firstly.. the whole reason for this blog is for they (including myself) to speak on their own behalf, not the more extroverted folk to do so. Secondly, and more importantly, no one should expect anyone to share their insides all the time, or even most of the time, for their insides and the lines would disappear, and we would have a contradiction on our hands of what is in and what is out, and no one wants to clean up that turned-out mess. Also, it can get annoying, and I hope that I never am that to you. These are just my opinions. Take them as you will, but believe I do not mean anything negative. 

Where I think the hidden hook lies that keeps people hesitant in communication, is where does the fine line of knowing what to and not share, reside?
For that I have to say, it is up to you to establish where that line falls. Truth can't be determined until you have all of the evidence, and neither can your gavel line to the sound block. Order!, Order!, Order!

If you don't be truthful to yourself and to others, if you don't communicate what you mean and let what you mean (communicate) ring.. the lines of your lies, facades, and lacklusteredly hide-and-go-seek games you play with yourself and/or others may start to blur along with your judgement of A sight to B (oh so many meanings). *Be sure to read the P.S.

You decide the line's place, and to place it correctly You must get to know yourself better. Your universe is the only world that matters to you. You alone decide your future into existence. Soul search, challenge yourself, think about the consequences of your actions. Where are they taking you? Where are you taking yourself? Where do you want to go? Think. Decide. Plan. Implement. Reflect. Think. Decide. Plan. Implement. Reflect. Think. Decide. Plan. Implement. Reflect. You help sculpt others' world, as they do the same for you. Do it right for the life you have to do it in, for everybody's sake, and for your own.

/leaps off soapbox..
                              onto another.

Please understand that you are not the only one who fumbles and mumbles up their words, even if they were meant pleasant. We are intelligent but not flawless creatures, so if you have trouble attempting to let your words out, do not fear your inaccuracies. If anything, fear the lack of Will to learn from words, and fear the lack of effort to fix what inconsistencies exist within them. It is better to be rude intelligently than to be rude politely. Know that it is never that they or you are worthless to speak, it is only that you either doubt too much in your own ability to articulate, and/or you doubt the actual words you mean to say. Which, trust me, is a common problem for everybody, and there are ways to ratify these issues.

*The Quick Advice Piece of the Blog: If you are in the moment, go with your instinct; you will have no other choice.*

To explore these instances, let's discover why to(we) speak in the first place. If we can harness our reasons to express, knowledgeably establish our motivations, bring to light our true desires, then we can more effectively communicate our wishes into matter.

Despite how seemingly egotistical we can be, we are social creatures. We want our thoughts, feelings, and actions to resonate with others. We seek acceptance, praise, and understanding though judging eyes, to not just prove past other's standards, but to surpass our own. Through valid tests, we have valid results. We are so critical of ourselves, and so of others, as we should be --- because it is through this primal instinct to challenge all that which we experience, that brings about an ultimate worth to us, and thus so, our understanding of the continuance of life.

Does this bring us vitality? Does that take us to truth? Will thee rise us higher than before? Does this bring us more life in the end? Does that corrupt us and lead us further into ignorance, facades, and faster to death? (Which is a subject for future debate.)

These are some of the questions we (sub)consciously ask ourselves for primal purposes. By testing these fundamental inquiries or building block questions, which arise the roots of all we know, we comfort again our instincts, our established truths, and find them now (re)justified and our confidence renewed.

My communication efforts today will live and die, but they will never be nonexistent because I have hit send. My expressions will not fail because I did not try, they will only fail in a disconnect between my inner-workings of my mind and the differences of your own. 

Each word will resonate within you, and you may take in all that they are worth, or more likely, you may not. Regardless, you will have siphoned all of the life out of them based on your current situation, your own understanding of the parameters of your existence today, or simply, you have listened to what you are meant to hear with your present strength of your eyes, ears, and overall senses. Whether or not you have come to the same conclusions that I have out the words I have shared --- regrettably most likely not so --- my words have lived and died in your mind, but they aren't nonexistent. It is only up to you and myself to resurface and refurbish their true meanings based on the right perception.

No matter what you speak, it is for some fundamental reason. People often just become too deterred in what they mean to speak, too questionable in that their words aren't exactly coherent. So much so, that they begin to doubt the wanted upcoming words before they are even uttered, fulfilling a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Doubt cultivates unsoundness. 

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Despite the possible uneasiness to communicate, what I want to ingrain in everyone is that it is not about what you have attempted to speak constructively. Communication is more about that you have COMMUNICATED at ALL constructively. We live in the Age of Aquarius. It is the age to share and feed off ideas, despite perfectionism. Just as no one says "perfect" perfectly, no one should expect a profound spiel each time you open your mouth. Keep in mind that even though that is what you should strive for, that is, meaningfully directed speech, we all should ultimately understand that it is a constant struggle to deliver "The Show". Practice makes perfect though!, and you can become perfect ( maybe in the next life :P ). And hence, therefore, no one should be condemned by their well intentioned messages, just urged to correct their meaning when they are misspoken. Accuracy is what everyone is reaching for, and so just as you are inaccurate at times, do not come down too harshly on those inevitably also at fault. In essence, in short, and in conclusion: Speak and listen with reason, and be willing to help reorganize messages appropriately.

But now to expand even further, we are left with the possible question of: "So how does one create a (the) rememberable and useful piece?", as any talk should aim towards..

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Of course this is when my mind would spark and ask, well, isn't anything rememberable, useful? 
You remember me for a reason, wouldn't it, couldn't it be for a higher, deeper purpose despite your unknowing? Shouldn't this be remembered at least as a bad example of what not to remember? And if so, .. -- doesn't that make this remembered piece, good? /Gah!, at the questions I am left at.

Our goal when we attempt to communicate is to feel that we have shared something of substance to the world. We take in input, we filter that information through our individual minds, and we regurgitate it back in our own unique way, hoping that we have fully encompassed and translated the communication back to the receiver with an improved response. One of the last things we want is for ourselves to repeat what was already said.

Mocking-birds tend to ruffle other flocks of feathers.

We don't want to just reflect what someone has said, we want to dig into, cultivate, and produce more than what was initially given. We desire this whole endeavor of accepting input, processing it, and outputting it to be replicated to and fro from others in an increasing quality, so that we may all experience all that which can be (re)processed, and therefore, fundamentally better understood. This brings a fuller, and more rich experience. This feeds the world of a positive vibe, and we all benefit. We want what we share to matter, so make what you matter count, and share with The World awaiting. 

So how do we do that?
We would first build and express connections.

Lemme preface this by saying it may be a rough transition.. 
                                                               ..but I hope you make the train.
Ding! Ding! Ding!

OH!, Dear!, and that's all the time we have for today's blog folks. In summary:

I am frightened to say anything more because I feel that the life I have lived within the words I have spoken will decrease!, decay!, and possibly die out with no more meaning! I do not want to emotionally lose my worth in your forgetfulness. Nor do I want to say something I may regret, or choke upon. But I said all that anyway, and that's the point. :)

As always, thank you for being here. I really hope you enjoyed it. Please feel welcome to leave any comments, critiques, concerns, or suggestions. Until next time, give back to the world the chance to make all what I.S. better for the greater good.

                                                                                                          Taylor


P.S. I don't mean to come across as a pretentious prick, nor as a sellout as I say, "From here you go!"

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